Hodge Podge o’ Stuff
Well this will not follow the flow of my latest posts. I am looking at putting uo a mirror site to try out Googles Blogger at http://kilenspot.blogspot.com/ . Currently not much is there.
I also want to try some layout using the Android app on my phone so you will be seeing pix on here.
Recently the Kilen’s have had some major life changes. These include employment, death, but most importantly… PUPPIES!
They have been a big hit around here. Its becoming second nature to see kids doing their homework while attached to one or more pups.
Courtney’s grandmother passed away, she had moved here from Florida to live with us about six years ago. Her health was going down hill and she moved to a independent living facility, where eventually it turned to assisted living. Atleast three times a week we would have her over to the house or we would take her out to eat. Her favorite restaurant was IHOP. She would always get the same meal 2 eggs over easy, burnt hash browns, sausage links, and whole wheat toast. About. Every six months she’d throw us off by ordering French Toast.
No matter where we went three things were givens; choclate milk, Skip-Bo, and her cheating at Skip-Bo. I am not kidding. Moriah took it really well. I was surprised to say the least. Bea and Mo were quite the pair together. Moriah was a regular at Wednesday Bingo with Bea. She was not the best at Bingo but she was a huge hit with all the residents.
Original Identity and reflection of Redeemed Innocence! Seeing in the Spirit rather than the natural eyes
Romans 1:6-10
In Jesus Christ you individually discover who you are. In addressing you, I am dressed all in room. I am convinced of God’s love for you; he restore you to the harmony of your original design; you were made holy in Christ Jesus; no wonder that you are surnamed Saints. Is Grey’s gift in Christ secures your total well being. The father of the Lord Jesus Christ is ours also, he is our God. My great joy is to realize that your face is announced throughout the entire world. Total cosmos is our audience. I am totally engaged in my spirit in the Gospel of Gods son, constantly including you in my prayers, God is my witness.
When you look at Jesus do you see a man what do you see God? I have always looked at Jesus not as just a man but as a God, I have never been able to separate the two. When I picture him speaking to the children or feeding the 5000 I see a man with the omniscience of God. Jesus saw into the spirit. When Jesus called Peter to walk on the water Peter initially stepped out in faith but immediately his eyes were overwhelmed by the natural and was immediately sunk.
Jesus did not come to the planet not to upgrade the cage of Judaism or to start a new one called Christianity but to totally blow out any paradigm. He came to reveal, reclaim, and redeem the image of God in us. The initial pre Adams fall blueprint was restored in us via his death and resurrection. In Genesis it talks about how Adam and God walked and talked in the garden. There was a relationship there like no other. ADAM WALKED AND TALKED WITH GOD! When Moses asked to see God;
Exodus 33:19 The LORD replied, “I will make all my goodness pass before you, and I will call out my name, Yahweh,c before you. For I will show mercy to anyone I choose, and I will show compassion to anyone I choose. 20But you may not look directly at my face, for no one may see me and live.” 21The LORD continued, “Look, stand near me on this rock. 22As my glorious presence passes by, I will hide you in the crevice of the rock and cover you with my hand until I have passed by. 23Then I will remove my hand and let you see me from behind. But my face will not be seen.”
Moses was not able to behold Gods face, the glory was so much that I assume it would have killed him. Instead, he was allowed to watch Gods backside after he passed. Whereas Adam walked with God! Let me repeat that, Adam walked with God!
God’s plan before the very foundation of the Earth was that we would walk with Him. Adam messed up and bought sin into the equation but through Jesus, when the stone was rolled away, we were raised together with him, restoring our original (pre-Adam oops) identity and mirror reflect the integrity of their/our redeemed innocence.
Romans announces the truth about the restoration of the Christians original identity and reflection of redeemed innocence!
Walking in the spirit;
We are not of this world, through this restoration to our original identity and redeemed innocence we should not just feel called but compelled to walk away from the carnal man but driven to shed the constraints of this physical life. I am pressing in to see what God has for me. I want more than this life has to offer. Daily it is a process to walk away from sin and into my pre-Adam relationship with God. God has now spoiled me with his grace.
I was driving my daughter to a babysitting job yesterday and it’s about 18 miles one way. On the way there people were trying my Christianity. I seem to be a magnet for yahoo drivers, why am I the guy that people feel lead to cut off? My road rage-omoter was being put to test. I was about 8 mikes from home driving up to the 71 and150th intersection when a mini van pulls out of Sonic cutting across two lanes directly in front of me bringing me from 45 mph to 15 mph with a slam of the brakes. I veerwd into the right lane and cruised by him and my indignation was rising. When suddenly I heard a voice speaking “what world are you in?” Immediately my anger left and put myself into the mindset of “I want to be in original identity. ”
This original identity redeemed innocence is mind blowing.
I walked into church with the above percolating in me. Lloyd Rindels started out in Colossians 3 and was speaking on the new covenant that this grace we are to walk into. I feel it ties into this.
Colossians 3:1-4 NLT
Since you have been raised to new life with Christ, set your sights on the realities of heaven, where Christ sits in the place of honor at God’s right hand. Think about the things of heaven, not the things of earth. For you died to this life, and your real life is hidden with Christ in God. And when Christ, who is your life, is revealed to the whole world, you will share in all his glory.
I died with Christ my real life is hidden IN Him! I died to the sin life I am daily waking to this new reality, this new freedom.
God redeem my life, free me to see in the spirit, I want to die to me.
Philippians 1:21 NIV
For to me, to live is Christ and to die is gain.
Colossians 1:3-6 NLT
This same Good News that came to you is going out all over the world. It is bearing fruit everywhere by changing lives, just as it changed your lives from the day you first heard and understood the truth about God’s wonderful grace.
Shame and Identity
Shame: we tend to view ourselves through shame glasses, Jesus bore the SHAME of the cross for us, he bore our shame. I never thougt about the shame of the cross, but he was innocent and death on the cross besides being painful and deadly bore a stigma of shame.
We tend to get our identity from what we think others think, feel, or believe about us. Jesus took that shame for us so that our identity is in him. God deleted the record of our sins, misdeeds, and shame. He no longer recalls them. Our identity is to be found in what he says about me/you/us. He finds joy in me/you/us.
He knew us before we were conceived and loved us prior to us being born or even having a chance to mess up. He braved the cross and despised the shame of it, he now occupies the highest seat of dominion to endorse/advocate my/your/our innocence. We find our destiny there.
His death brought about our ability to have life un hampered by the sin nature. Colosians 2:6-11 Your daily walk is no different from the initial embrace when you first understand your divine assosiation in him…it is Christ that God finds an accurate and complete expression of himself, in a human body!…Jesus mirrors our completeness and endorses our true identity. He is I AM in us….sin’s authority in the human body was stripped off you in him dying YOUR death.”
Identity
I’ve been contemplating Romans 5-8 for the past two weeks. It kind was a challenge I was given and taken on. I feel there have been some some really interesting people, events, and things that have been put into my life recently that have made an Impact, a huge impact at that. As of December 28th after seven years I no longer work for T-Mobile. My stability and identity have been pushed and pulled quite a bit.
Previously when asked how are you or what do you do much was plced on vocation. “Why I’m a retail sales manager,”or “I work forT-Mobile and I would truly work for the company. I put in grueling hours and I identified myself as to what I did 90% of the week.
It was a bit of a hit not working there anymore for my identity. Who was I? What or how should I label myself. I had always been a provider, I could always fall backn on that. I’ve been a father and a husband but that to me has been a mixed bag as far as results go (get to that another time).
I feel God had been setting me up. I knew my life was not in my cotrol and I had been feeling like I was losing my grip on whatever was left. Ive been in a spiritual desert since probably 2005 much to my own fault. During that time I threw myself into work. I think I felt that this was something “I” could control and succeed in. So I did. I worked obsessively. I would put in 50+ work weeks and I worked retail hours so it was a helter skelter schedule. During this time I slipped away from relating to not only family but basically everyone. As I said I was losing my grip on my life. I knew I was at a cross roads and I was setting my mind to seek after God. I prayed one of the worst prayers ever to be uttered “God whatever it takes to get out of this desert, do it.” As I mentioned a little earlier I recently lost my job, yeah this was probably a part of the answer to thay prayer. It has been two months since that happened. I have pushed into seeking God. God has put people iny life that have spoken to me on the heart level. I have had resources fall into my lap to feed my spirit man.
Commercial break: if yiu haven’t heard of The Mirror Translation of the Bible I highly suggest you get a copy. (www.mirrorword.net) it is a partial translation of the New Testament that is similar to the Amplified and Message versions put together. Each verse is expounded in and put into wording that makes you take a new look at the scriptures. I use it more as a commentary than a bible. I have two other versions out and add the word going verse by verse reading it in each of the three versions and then pray over each verse asking God to unlock it on a new level and I feel I have had more spiritual growth in a short period then ever before. (Back to blog)
During these past two months I have had to choose to set my heart to dig into Gods plan for me. I’ve had to change my identity or where I found that identity.
Colosians 1:15-17 In him the image and likeness of Godis made visible in human life in order that everyone may recognize their true origin in him. He is the first born of every creature. … He is the initiatorof all things therefore everything finds its relevance and its true pattern only in him. Colosians 2:10 Jesus mirrors oyr completeness and endorses our true identity. He is I Am in us.
I have to see that Christ defines my original design prior to creation. Adam brought sin into this world, he brought about a dependence on reliance on sacrifice and the law. Christ came and laid down his life as a final sacrifice on the cross restoring our innocence. He restored my innocence in that moment, that act. I now find my identity and destiny there.
I have always been one who strives to find my place and work things out on my terms. A couple weeks ago I was on my way to an early morning prayer meeting in Olathe Kansas. On the way there I was riding in the back seat of a Toyota Prius (if you know me this is pretty funny, I’m not a small guy). I was zoning out of the conversation going on in the front and I was praying to God asking him to please let me hear his voice. Remember I have been living in a personal spiritual desert. We arived and I went in and sat down. Historically the way I feel I have heard from God has been by seeing words in my mind or like a semi concious whisper. I heard that semi conscious whisper that morning placement. I immediately started asking for more on it. (You can look back a couple blogs and I wrote about it.) But I prayed and later got another word positioning. I realized that I have always been striving for position, whether it was self gratifying or seeking vocation or title, it was all on me. Whereas placement is me sitting back (but moving forward, not happy style) and letting God lead and place me where he wants. It was moveing away from self reliance and moving into God reliance. I’m not all there yet (I may never be) but I have a vision of what it is not and what it should be. My identity is in him and my destiny is defined in that relationship.
Philippians 3:8 In fact, I have come to the conclusion that every association I have had with that which defined me before as a devout Jew, is by far eclipsed by what I have gained in knowing the Messiah. Jesus is my Master. Religion stinks! Avoid stepping into it!
3:9 So here I am; found in Christ! I was looking in the wrong place all along! My own duty- and guilt-driven religious endeavour snared me in the cul de sac maize of self righteousness, sponsored by the law of works! The faith of Christ reveals my identity; righteousness defines who God believes that I really am. This righteousness is sourced in God and endorses the authority of faith. (Faith is a fairy tale if Jesus is not the substance of it!)
3:10 Oh to comprehend the dynamic of his resurrection! His resurrection is evidence of our righteousness! In the revelation of God’s economy of inclusion, I actually co-suffered with him and co-died together with Christ! (Because I was already fully represented in his sufferings, his death and resurrection, I am greatly inspired when faced with contradictions now!)
3:11 When confronted with death, I actually come face to face with my own resurrection! (The word katantao, from kata + anti, to come to a place over against, opposite another, face to face.) Mirror Bible
Romans 8
Romans 8:10
But if Christ is in you , yout body is dead because of sin, yet your spirit is alive because of righteousness. NIV
The revelation of Christ in yiu declares that your body is as good as dead to sins demands; sin cannot find any expression in a corpse. You co-died together with him. Yet your spirit is alive because of what righteousness reveals.
The Mirror Translation
The revelation of what happened to us in Christs death is what brings faith into motion to libetate from within. Faith is not a decision we make to give God a chance, faith is realizing our inclusion in what happened on the cross and His resurrection. The cross was that pivotal point in mans destiny here on earth and push for walking into eternity here on earth. The cross released man from Adams sin curse, the blood of sheep and goats and the law were superceded with the peefect sacrifice on the cross and resurrection. Righteousness by Gods gift of Grace! This is not a license to sin without judgement, but a release from the chains of the law. Our sin man was put on the cross with Christ. My spirit mans sin mortgage was paid on that day 2000 years ago. I am not bound to sin, my spirit owes the flesh nothing.
Romans 8 : 11
Our union with Christ for the reveals that because the same spirit that awakened the body of Jesus from the dead inhabits of us, we equally participate in his resurrection. In the same act of authority whereby God raised Jesus from the dead, he co-restores your body to life by his indwelling spirit.
The Mirror Translation
Our very beings spiritual DNA has been altered. Fear should be past tense, sin should be past tense, freedom in Christs gift
The Mirror Translation
I have recently obtained a new version of the Bible called the Mirror Translation, you can find out more information about it at http://www.mirrorword.net. it is a work in progress by Francois Du Toit. Personally I do not use it as my Bible but more as a commentary. It has a real grace paradigm/view. I liken it to the Amplified Bible in that it takes liberties and expounds on its take on the scriptures.
It has been really useful in my growth. I admit I have had issues pressing in with my studies and in the past have really just used a shotgun method where I would read large chunks and hope quantity brought about revelation.
With the Mirror Translation I have been forced to set down with it, a copy of the NLT and NIV. I read one verse and compare and contemplate in all three versions. I take notes on it, pray it, contemplate, and re-note my revelation/insight.
This is where I am now I am transfering my notes to blogging them. In all honesty I dont see myself advertising this blog. It should essentially be for my regurgitation. Also, I an doing it primarily from my phone so it might not be the most eye catching, so forgive me in advance.
That’s all for now…
Grace at the Cross
We owe the flesh nothing. In the light of all this, to now continue to live under the sinful influences of the senses is to reinstate the dominion of spiritual death. Instead, we are indebted to now exhibit the highest expression of life inspired by the Spirit. This life demonstrates zero tolerance to the habits and sinful patterns of the flesh.
Rom 8 : 12-13
Mirror Translation
Reveal the cross to me. My request.
Death on the cross liberates me, im now no longer bound by the law, grace
The magnitude of the death broke the hold of sin and death, it broke the hold of the law.
Rom 5:8 God’s love gift: mankind was rotten to the core when Christ died their (my) death.
Death HAD a global impact. No one could escape it. Our old lifestyle was co-crucified together with him…our slavery to sin HAD come to an end. Death lost its dominion over Christ in his resurrection; he died for my sins past present and future. He paid for our sins. Our sin man died on the cross that day 2000 years ago. There is no longer condemnation, that doesn’t mean to go ahead and sin, it means walk in the liberty pressing in walking in that no longer being tied to temptation or judgment. I can walk knowing he loves and accepts me unconditionally. I probably will mess up. There will be days I dont meaaure up but I dont have to measurw up to the law, I walk in righteousness to the best I can and let grace take my short comings.
Philipians 1:21 For me to live is Christ to die is gain. Every day is a new day in him.
(Andrew Farley google him)
81% of professed Christians believe spiritual maturity is trying to follow the rules, if you choose to be ruled by the law you will forever be in condemnation.
Therefore im a new creation in Christ daily hourly.
Rom 8:15
Slavery is such a poor substitute for sonship!
Law > leads through fear.
Sonship > responds to Abba Father
2 Tim
God has not given me a spirit of fear but of power love and sound mind.
God does not look down on me in judgement but love.
John 5:24
We were meant to walk free in Christ, dead to sin. We walk around in a spirit of fear and condemnation,
The devil has bamboozled us. We do not succeed through striving or self improvement, we need to get grace of the cross glasses and see His sacrifice, the death of the cross brings freedom from guilt and fear.
Freedom via Grace through the Cross
Now the decisive conclusion is this: in Christ, every bit of condemning evidence against us is canceled. (In Christ revelation is key to God’s dealing with man) …this leaves me with no further obligation to the law of sin and death. (The) Spirit has supersemded the sin enslaved senses as the principle law of our lives.
Loose paraphrase of Romans 8:1-2 parsed from The Mirror Translation.
Sin trapped man into legalism, Christs death on the cross brought forth grace. Not necessarily that we are free from sin but that we are free to be in Christ. We are no longer to be burdened by the things of this world, sin and death have no grounds to condemn or bring about fear.
I can walk in freedom, I am no longer chained to this world but emancipated. God paid my spiritual mortgage 2000 years ago. This grace gift gives freedom from sin and death.
32 Random things about me… (edited and appended)
Original post on Friday, March 6, 2009
2. My first motor vehicle was a 1972 yellow and black International Scout II that I rebuilt when I was 15. I really loved that truck…
3. In college I started playing guitar and bass guitar… I was self taught and those who have heard me play will attest that yep I was definitely self taught (hahahahaha).
4. I still have my first bass guitar and don’t know if I would ever be able to part with it. It is nothing special (Peavey Foundation) even though it is a basic four string I would rather play it than a 5 string…
5. I went to three colleges and have had like 7 different majors. I eventually graduated with a bachelors in social science and a masters in education.
6. My wife (Courtney) is my best friend!! Some may call me very lucky to have her others may say she was unlucky to have me…
7. My oldest daughter Savannah surprises me all the time… she has a real solid head on her shoulders and constantly makes these quality decisions that blow me away. I’m quite proud of her.
8. Over the summer she was averaging over 35,000 text messages a month… not sure whether to be proud or ashamed on that one. Kind leaning toward proud, I’m a dad always looking for the best…
9. Our house has 6 toilets, that’s a lot of scrubbing and toilet paper.
10. Some may say I have an issue with electronic gadgets and computers… I’m continually looking for something new to do. Courtney thinks I may be a little obsessive with them. She is probably right.
11. I used to love to read and would finish a book in a day, hmm yeah that habit has gone by the wayside… I don’t know if I have actually finished a book in a long time, I start them but rarely finish, although I have moved away from fiction to non fiction…
12. My feet have grown 2 sizes since high school (11 to 13).
13. I would rather watch a action or comedy movie than a scary movie. Don’t like them at all, or should I say I can’t handle the suspense.
14. In college I had some punk tendencies and really enjoyed them…
15. I used to have cats when I was growing up and oddly enough I am now allergic to them, dogs are so way much better than cats. Cats are lazy arrogant animals that waste space.
16. We currently have three dogs, two geckos, and a turtle. We have had numerous other pets as well including hermit crabs that were more reproductive than our rabbits, guinea pigs, sugar gliders, etc
17. Courtney and I traded in a Mercedes 300 for a Chevy Venture… a mini van! What were we thinking!
18. I like using “…” in online posts. Looking up I think I counted 7 already that’s almost 50% of each random thought has one in them so far…
19. I hate math but loved geometry, it seems to make so much sense, I guess I just think spatially.
20. I didn’t know I was color blind until I was 15, it was in freshman health and Mrs. Kurth said does everyone see the number six in the diagram and I was like ‘what six?” guess that means I’m colorblind.
21. I still play with legos. They rock!! I use the excuse i’m playing with my son but truth be told i would probably do it with out him.
22. I love traveling, I have been able to go to China, Thailand, India, Japan, Bahamas, Virgin Islands, and others, I have not been to Norway (the motherland) but plan on going there and also Israel soon. Off to Hawaii next week.
23. I have never liked coffee… taste like dirt water…
24. Once in Thailand I was on this floating market. It was close to 105 degreees and this little old Thai women came up and rubbed Tiger Balm on my fore head and temples trying to get me to buy it, for those of you who don’t know what tiger balm is, it’s like icy hot on steroids, I was already sweating like a stuck pig, after that I was in excruciating pain and felt like I was literally on fire.
25. I enjoy China’s black market, I became really good at bartering and getting deals on anything. My first time buying a Rolex/Folex I paid about $15. Eventually I could get 5 for about $10. I would buy North Face jackets for $5. When going there I learned to pack minimally in a throw away duffle bag, buy my Samsonite luggage then fill them up with anything and everything before heading home.
26. All four my kids names have an “ah” on the end
27. I get bored easily…
28. My sister in law (Britt) at age fourteen asked me “What color is the color clear?” It makes me smile thinking about it still.
29. Even though I was born and raised in Wisconsin, I have never actually gone cow tipping. I truly wonder if anybody has ever actually gone cow tipping, I think it is as relevant as snipe hunting with the pillow cases and the flashlights.
30. Junco jeans, wha more do I have to say… a fad that is as gladly seen gone as parachute pants.
31. during the 80’s I was a master at doing the ankle roll on my jeans.
32. I had a mullet when I was marrried and rocked it well! I also owned numerous pairs of ZUBAS!!!
Nightly run or…
Ok, so those of you who know me know I have started running, I am not the fastest or most graceful of runners. I am nothing to look at and probably give a few chuckles to those in cars who pass by me on my midnight excursions into south Kansas City suburbia. At 6’4+” and 260 pounds I probably am not to impressive and you would not confuse me with Ben Johnson.
I have never been a runner and well the only thing I have ever run for in the past was the ice cream truck or the fridge. I am not sure if it is a mid-life crisis deal or what but I have been purposefully changing my life. I dropped 60 lbs. and have been getting in shape. I find the time alone very contemplative and enjoyable. I started out listening to music but have switched to biblical studies on mp3. I have also spent alot of the time praying and listening… I have also started to blog (you may have noticed if your reading this). It really doesn’t matter if anyone ever reads this or not I am doing this more as an outlet of thought and a synthesis of the things that come out of my time alone.
I went out for a run tonight listening to Matt Candler and the “New Song” I made it about 1km and my ankle, well kind of gave out. By the time I hobbled home my ankle was feeling much better. I didn’t quite feel like trying to run again but thought “hey let’s change it up.” I picked up my bike and went for about a 10 mile ride. I felt some muscles I haven’t felt for a while I’m wondering if I should take a pre-emptive dose of ibuprofen… too lazy we’ll just find out how it comes out in the morning.
well that’s it for tonight…











