Quitting your calling….

(My thoughts)

I used to be a youth pastor who was really involved in activating 10 yr olds and up. I took teams of youth and traveled with worship and intecressory teams motivating and training churches in how worship and intercession worked together to move mountains and change the temperature of a generation (yeah about that).

I was a motivator giving a yu rah rah to change the world… 

I spoke of calling an destiny, throw in a little hootzpah! Add a plan and create desire call forth Joel’s Army and the Esthter’s call forh a Nazarite or two bring on emotions, puberty, zeal and guilt. 

Cast a vision cteate a false future narrative and name it “your calling “.

I now look at it and I may have been talking in order to sound like a voice rather than being a voice. I did not get it.  

I used to think I had to do to BE, and to fall short was a disgrace and to have a God who was disappointed in  my failure.

Have you ever watched one of those #fail compilation videos on YouTube?  More than likely you have, there are plethora of them put there. Have you ever watched a #success compilation on YouTube?  Yeah me neither.  I don’t know if they exist. 

I know that setting goals is important  but what should those spiritual goals look like?

I’m going with Isaiah 58:6-7

…To loose the bonds of wickedness,

To undo the heavy burdens,

To let the oppressed go free,

And that you break every yoke?

Is it not to share your bread with the hungry,

And that you bring to your house the poor who are cast out;

When you see the naked, that you cover him…

I’m  ok not having a pulpit ministry, I’m ok with not having a title follow, I’m ok without the praise of people. Anonymity is my friend it’s  my calling to be in the shadows helping, feeding, upliftig, being there one on one.

My calling is not preacher, teacher, prophet, elder…..

It is to be human and an integral part of that humanity..